I want to cry, I want to laugh, silly things make me feel this way, it’s really quite irritating.

I keep feeling things in my stomach, though considering what’s in there is only 2mm at the moment, it’s probably more a want than a fact.

I also hate not being able to tell anyone – though am getting top tips at lying by my sister – and (shame on me) I have such issues about using toilets in pubs, when I’ve not been drinking there, so told the truth last night. I was bursting, and told the barmaid, who pointed me in the right direction. So that’s three people and a complete stranger who know now. I know everyone says they don’t care, and I’m sure they don’t… but I just felt a bit rude walking in there to use their loo, and straight back out there again.